It's not so much the fact that im going to miss you. It's not so much the fact that im being a cliche over dramatic who loves spending his time with his girlfriend. It's more then that. It's more the lack of opportunity to with my best friend, it's the lack of opportunity to feel good in my own skin.
No, i shouldnt have to have you around in order to feel comfortable. But its not the social, physical type of satisfying dependency. It's the fact that its taken me twenty years to experience what love is. It's taken me this long to find out what i've been missing. Even still this may seem like mind-numbing repetitiveness... but to me it means more. It's a coming of age, its a right of passage, its me with you. It's me with the one i love, it's me with the one that means the most to me. It's me being able to rub your hip as you fall asleep, its being being able to kiss your head and feel your breath on my chest. Its the excited feeling i get every time i know im going to be seeing you again. Its the spark that i feel is stronger now then when we first met. It's the best friend i'll be missing, it's the kiss i'll be wishing for, it's the hug that i'll be waiting for. It's you. It's all you.
Yeah i know, its for about a week and a bit, suck it up, i know, i know. I needed to vent this out on paper though, i've been thinking about it all day and it made the day crawl by.
So, i guess what im trying to say is... i'll give you an "n" if you'll give me an "e". Im going to miss you sweetheart.
MAN im slacking in album reviews... i promise i'll have three done soon enough, one on the way/during/returning from halifax. Hopefully two more by the end of summer.
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yup, sure am missing you already from the very depths of my being. not just as my lover, but as my friend as well. i want to share EVERYTHING with you, and i feel robbed when i can't.
here it is for the world to see: i love you. ...and still, it sounds so small.
tomato soup is delicious.
also, i haven't a clue what you mean by the "n" and the "e" thing, but i would still happily give you lots of "e"s if it would make you happy. but just the same...you should let me know what it means.
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